Sunday, December 30, 2007

Thinking About the Year Gone By

Two days until 2008? Good grief! Where did this year go? My mother used to tell me that the years seemed to pass more quickly as she got older, but I didn't realize it would be like this! The year 2007 hasn't been the worst year of my life, by any means, but I won't be sorry to put it behind me. I'm determined that 2008 will be a much better year. A much, much better year. I'm due. 2004 was the year my daughter began a very difficult battle with depression. In early 2005, she bottomed out and we spent the rest of the year recovering. By the end of that year, she was doing well enough for me to have a little mini-breakdown of my own. I'd just started dragging myself out of that when she decided to get married. After a whirlwind of planning on a shoestring budget, we had the wedding, and before we even had time to catch our breath, Abigail was born 13 1/2 weeks early. We spent the rest of 2006 keeping vigil in the hospital, and finally brought our baby girl home at the very end of the year. So along came 2007, and all should have been well, right? Except that after three solid years of difficult times, I really crashed and burned. I could have kept this blog running day and night as I chronicled my own battle with depression, but breathing and staying awake took all the energy I had on most days, and besides, it would only have depressed you. For me, 2007 was all about recovery -- which is good. At least things didn't get worse. You'll agree, won't you, that I'm due a good year? That's the only resolution I'm going to make. To be myself again. 2008 is the year I get my life back. It's the year I get my muse back. It's the year I get my drive and ambition back. I just hope I recognize myself when we meet again after all this time :)

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